HI Mommy I have had a rough week. this makes the second without Terrell here with me. the house is so quiet and empty. its a little scary. I miss him but i am so glad no more pain can enter his body. i had a chance to witness his final breath. he began his transformation way before the CPR started. Mommy he is buried directly across from Ms. Johnson, his grandmother. when i went to the cemetery and saw that i just smiled. i couldn't cry, they are like you in peace. I still miss you mom. I don't think i could ever have been as strong as i am now, if i had experienced your transformation first. I don't question God's decisions, I just happy that I have all of you up there looking down upon me, guiding my steps and sending a sheet of protection over me and my children. I love you dearly. This Friday night is just about over and Im glad that i had my chance to talk with you.