One year has passed, today was very difficult. i mean your my mom and there was so much we hadn't done yet. I remember your last sigh with your last breath. thank you for giving me that memory. thank you for raising me to be humble, sensitive and determined. Every time i see those ushers in church i cry. i remember your strut, you would look at me and wink. i always stood strong just like you. but i don't know how much longer i can be strong its so much. Have you seen Terrell, he left me too. Tell him I said hello. My family will never be the same without you. it hurts like hell. but please guide me as a i begin to enter into a new year. i love you mommy and wish you were here with me