I watching Cosby tonight and he was telling Claire, that sometimes you are not supposed to do things for the rest of your life, sometimes its just for a short period of time. That was a reflective piece for me. Everyday I am hitting my job hard, and sometimes i wonder why i get so tired, but keep pushing. At this point i need to see results. How can i continue this year after year with no end in mind. Mom i know you always wanted me to do what i am passionate about. Well right now i have a paper dissertation and thats my passion, but while I'm searching for my passions, i don't to lose everything around me..These are the conversations i miss with you mommy, because you always had the best advice. miss you much, your spirit lives on..