I'm retired now mom. I'm in a new world. A peaceful world. A world where I'm loved and there is no struggle. Oh mommy I miss you. I wish you could have met Amy. She is the light of my life. And my girls are thriving. You would be so damn proud of them. And I have two grandbabies. Mom. They bring so much joy to my life. Two boys. I just light up when I see them. I miss you and keep you in my heart everyday.